Monday, August 06, 2007

Courage

Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.
-Dorothy Thompson-

Rewind - Changes



Just happened to skim through all of my previous posts yesterday... Did it for the first time after blogging for a few years now... I find it funny though to read them now... and I tends to write more when I'm feeling blues... and here comes the day again...
I think it's probably better to write down happy moments instead of the lows... perhaps then I'll have the records of my happy days only... and hopefully as time goes by, it'll wash down those memories of my lows... But, I think I learn a lot more when I'm enduring the pains and sorrows... I thought I'd apologize to my readers for having written down my blues most of the time.. but when I came across this quote below... I'm just gonna reserve my words on that now :)

Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth.
-Benjamin Disraeli-

I have friends who tend to throw up whatever food that they eat when they are nervous, be it over exams or anything of that sort... myself? I have butterflies in my stomach, I could visit the loo as often as every 15-20 mins when I feel nervous... and recently just discovered that my 'blues' are leading in this category. It has been like this since the past few months... not feeling well about it cuz I can be moody for quite some times... now that I have this moody tummy with me... I can visit the loo as many as 5 times in a day... (hmmm... do I have to make it clear what was the purpose of visiting the loo?... ... ... "lau sai" lar!)

Coming back to my previous posts... certainly I have learned something from those incidents (esp the painful ones)... but I have Qs in my mind as when I read them again yesterday: Do I actually needs to behave as such back then? Given the same situations again today, what would my reaction be now..? Likely to take a different approach now...


There came my Changes... it's either changing for the better or worst. I didn't really realise my changes until persons who are dearly closed to me told me about it. I was surprised though and my tears were running down my cheeks upon hearing this. Reasons? felt glad for my self-improvement and for their happiness... Mentally growth~

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Phew~

Gosh... after spending hours on skin selection... an attempt to change clothe almost costed me my blog! Luckily saved a copy of my original html..or I won't be blogging this entry now... aiks~~ smartie among the IDIOT :P and now..what's gone is my snowflakes... :(

Tuesday, July 17, 2007



WHAT ACTUALLY MADE U UP TO BE WHOM U R TODAY...?

Monday, July 09, 2007

The Tears

It was just another usual nite... but I couldn't hold back my feelings anymore... My tears just came about under my H's warmed hugs... it was really all kinda mixed feelings that I had, which have been keeping under me for long... I still feel like crying out loud now... but somehow, my tears just doesn't come out this easy like last nite...

If only tears will do, please take away all my uneasiness.. please...

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Softdrink can cause a Change in DNA!!!

Publisher: The Independent (UK)
Caution: Some soft drinks may seriously harm your health
Expert links additive to cell damage
By Martin Hickman, Consumer Affairs Correspondent
Published: 27 May 2007

A new health scare erupted over soft drinks last night amid evidence they may cause serious cell damage. Research from a British university suggests a common preservative found in drinks such as Fanta and Pepsi Max has the ability to switch off vital parts of DNA.

The problem - more usually associated with ageing and alcohol abuse - can eventually lead to cirrhosis of the liver and degenerative diseases such as Parkinson's.

The findings could have serious consequences for the hundreds of millions of people worldwide who consume fizzy drinks. They will also intensify the controversy about food additives, which have been linked to hyperactivity in children.

Concerns centre on the safety of E211, known as sodium benzoate, a preservative used for decades by the £74bn global carbonated drinks industry. Sodium benzoate derives from benzoic acid. It occurs naturally in berries, but is used in large quantities to prevent mould in soft drinks such as Sprite, Oasis and Dr Pepper. It is also added to pickles and sauces.

Sodium benzoate has already been the subject of concern about cancer because when mixed with the additive vitamin C in soft drinks, it causes benzene, a carcinogenic substance. A Food Standards Agency survey of benzene in drinks last year found high levels in four brands which were removed from sale.

Now, an expert in ageing at Sheffield University, who has been working on sodium benzoate since publishing a research paper in 1999, has decided to speak out about another danger. Professor Peter Piper, a professor of molecular biology and biotechnology, tested the impact of sodium benzoate on living yeast cells in his laboratory. What he found alarmed him: the benzoate was damaging an important area of DNA in the "power station" of cells known as the mitochondria.

He told The Independent on Sunday: "These chemicals have the ability to cause severe damage to DNA in the mitochondria to the point that they totally inactivate it: they knock it out altogether.

"The mitochondria consumes the oxygen to give you energy and if you damage it - as happens in a number if diseased states - then the cell starts to malfunction very seriously. And there is a whole array of diseases that are now being tied to damage to this DNA - Parkinson's and quite a lot of neuro-degenerative diseases, but above all the whole process of ageing."

The Food Standards Agency (FSA) backs the use of sodium benzoate in the UK and it has been approved by the European Union but last night, MPs called for it to investigate urgently.

Norman Baker, the Liberal Democrat chair of Parliament's all-party environment group said: "Many additives are relatively new and their long-term impact cannot be certain. This preservative clearly needs to be investigated further by the FSA."

A review of sodium benzoate by the World Health Organisation in 2000 concluded that it was safe, but it noted that the available science supporting its safety was "limited".

Professor Piper, whose work has been funded by a government research council, said tests conducted by the US Food and Drug Administration were out of date.

"The food industry will say these compounds have been tested and they are complete safe," he said. "By the criteria of modern safety testing, the safety tests were inadequate. Like all things, safety testing moves forward and you can conduct a much more rigorous safety test than you could 50 years ago."

He advised parents to think carefully about buying drinks with preservatives until the quantities in products were proved safe by new tests. "My concern is for children who are drinking large amounts," he said.

Coca-Cola and Britvic's Pepsi Max and Diet Pepsi all contain sodium benzoate. Their makers and the British Soft Drinks Association said they entrusted the safety of additives to the Government.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

To leave that Wonderland

A sleepless nite costs me a firm decision to "leave" a part of the many wonderlands in Beez tonite. I have been wondering why the same people are treating me differently over the days... new people, new faces, new characters, new behaviours, new reactions... I'm not feeling good about it,but I'm just too slow in getting myself involved in the topics these new people are talking about... it's just too hard for me... yeah, i know that's my problems... i should solve these problems myself... i'm yet to figure out a better way to solve them...
"treat like cases alike"...
that's the principal of the Doctrine of Precedent in law...
perhaps that phrase actually apply in our daily life... maybe, i'm not of their 'alike'... indeed~
I shall choose to leave that piece of my wonderland... for as long as i'm feeling good to get back again... at least a few months, to even years... I'm not sure but that's a promise to Beez!
Beez shall choose to live in the HAPPY Wonderland for good =)

Sunday, May 06, 2007

That's ME

Sometimes I just hated myself for being too sensitive and that caused me to be a paranoid. And most of the time my sixth sense tells me the precision. It' s always easy to 'say' what-to-do and what-not-to-do... eg: "U can't stop what a person have to say about u, so u should just ignore them.". But frankly, when these things really happen to me, it's hard to pretend to be a deaf, or pretend that nothing have ever happened. Yeah... and that's me, Beez!
I can always tell what a person actually is after a few conversations, or sometimes, even after the first interaction. I won't say that I'll be right all the times, but most of the time. And that would caused me into blue-ish mood. Yeah, a typical piscean - MOODY! I do take all relationships seriously, be it between my family, in love, or friendships... and when I say ALL, I mean it!
Let's pick 'Friendship'.
I love getting to know new people around me. I do treat all friendships sincerely. But as a matter of fact, there are lotz of people coming to u for certain reasons. I'll be hoping for 'good reasons' though. But as soon as I discovered these 'facts'... I'll be like an apple throwing down from the 11th floor of a 27th floors building (don't ask me why these odd numbers being used :p)... Yeah, I'll be pretty sad for that.
I had a table-talk topic with my mates the other day, on the topic of 'who do u think has the most arrogant look in X place'. I did not have an answer to that question, and I did not agree to whose name they have suggested.
As I put it this way: Some people just wasn't born with a 'friendly look'... like myself. But if u really get to know him/her, u'd probably know that u have misjudged them earlier. There is no fault of either party. It's just a mistake, a 'reasonable' mistake.
People have been telling me, or rather, commented me on that ever since I was 7 year-old... usually they asked me to SMILE more often. I actually does that most of the time, but normally among the group of friends I used to hang out with... Those who know me for long would say I'm 'sporting, crazy, and nice'. It'll be a total contradictory comment from those who doesn't really know me.
Well, to simplify this... it's either U Like me or U Hate me! (and I can know this precisely even without u telling me :p) I'm fine with both, though I'll be 'moody' over the latter. And please welcome to be my friend especially if u're sincere... I'm just being hurt too much by insincere friendships, I need healing-hands, indeed. And I think I have found ONE now, J... I'm glad to have J who are happy to tell me his story and vise versa.
Just WISH that I'm a person who couldn't care more bout others, but sadly, I'm not. I do care!

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