I'm suppose to sleep at this time. Wonder what on earth am i doing now?! Needs to get up early for school tomorrow some more. I almost fall asleep just now, but when i think of things to do tomorrow, i feel so stressed. Getting exams results is so stressful to me. hahaa! Perhaps this is a liltle bit 'too much' la, but what to do?! i'm now like this ler...
Listening to the Mayday's song i put up here the other day... been repeating it for several times now. Really love this song very very much! Wanna share this with friends especially... talking bout friends, i have many friends coming in and out of my life... yeah, true that some does leave footprints in my heart... some may not. To me, when i call u a FRIEND of mine, u have already left ur footprints on me, without a doubt!
I used to be very very sincere in making FRIENDS... i thought that when i treat someone good, he/she would treat me good as well. When u be sincere to people, they will be sincere to u. To my innocent thoughts, i was wrong. I been truely deeply hurt by close friends! I wont say that i'm a perfect friend to others though, but i dint expect these to happen to myself for so many times. I rather to keep friends who come and leave with good and happy memories to cherish. My heart feels pain whenever i recall those scars they left inside me. Was it worth what i have paid for that relationship? Perhaps i should not have questioned this. At the least, i did assumed that we had good times then. If i were given a second chance, i wished that had not taken place at all. I know this is not possible, so i choose the alternative way.
I am more watchful now. Not that i am not sincere, just to keep myself alert. I dont wanna get hurt so deeply again. A slight one MAY BE still fine for me now. Ofcourse preferrable NONE at all! How good it is if i were told before the stabbing took place ho?hehee...
If u ask me who my best friend is, i cant really give u an answer at this point. I dont know if i can tell u in years to come. U will be lucky if U can find a best friend in entire life. ONE is enough. Do appreciate him/her. I am still looking around for mine. Meanwhile, cheers!! to all my friends out there! I love being your friend, i hope u feel the same too!
ok, i should force myself to sleep now. It's almost 4am now! Panda Bear Eyes @-@ liao...
