I got to visit my 85 year-old grandma in Triang, Pahang on Sunday noon after we went to the temple in Karak. It took about an hour and 30 minutes drive following the Bukit Mandi way.
When we (dad, mum, 2 sisters and myself) reached my uncle's house, my aunt was bathing ah-ma near the bathroom. Ah-ma felt shy and wanted to get up when she saw us. Ah-ma could not stand on her own now... she feels pain whenever she tries to use strenght to get up. Both my aunts who live next door take turns to take care ah-ma's daily neccessity, like foods and answering natural calls. Thus, ah-ma has to wear pampers to make things easier.
We waited for ah-ma at the living hall. "AH-MA~" I shouted while waiving my left hand at her when she came out from bedroom after wearing clothes. I felt sour inside me. Ah-ma looks very much older now than previous years. She lost alot of weight. She is still quite healthy except that she can't use any strenght at her legs. She would craw like a baby if she really needs to get to some where (like from bedroom to living room). She can still hear and see well, but sometimes just can't recognises people around her.
Ah-ma was very happy that we came to visit her, especially now that she feels that she's alone and people do not like her because she is giving them trobles by letting them taking care of her. "i'm old and causing trobles to you young people... i'm useless now.." and a few drops of tears running down her chick. After my mum persuaded her not to think that way because that is just normal for everyone else when comes to the same situation, she than felt ok and turned her attention to both my sisters. She did know who exactly they are. I was sitting further at the side. Then my dad asked her if she could recognised me. My heart was pumping unusually fast but hoping that she would call my name. She paused for a second and called my name correctly... Thank god! Ah-ma's memory seems better that day as compare to two months back during the CNY. The more i look at her, the more i feel sour at heart. Tears were right at the corner of my eyes. I quickily turned my face to my sis and the tears just dropped. Sis scolded me to hold them back. I wiped them off quitely then joint in their conversation again.
As everyone was paying their attention at the show on Astro channel 34, suddenly i felt something fell on my feet. It was ah-ma's feet. I was sitting on the floor and ah-ma was on a chair. She then looked down (and saw my feet) and smile at me. A sweet one i remember. I smile at her and then turned my head down. Again, my tears dropped.
After about 100 minutes (around 5pm), dad said we had to leave before it was too late to use the Bukit Mandi way (which is without any streetlights along the road side and quite dangerous when driving at night). Before leaving, Ah-ma looked rather sad while holding our hands. My sis and me hugged her goodbye and she turned around and praised my mum for teaches us well and good. "Ah-ma is also very good because u taught my mum well in the first place!" I replied while my voice changed because i was tearing AGAIN... i walked towards the door and wiped them off. I knew my aunt were looking at me though. *pai seh* Then i saw ah-ma held dad and mum's hands for quite a long time and asked us must come and visit her again. Mum promised her that we will visit her once a month from now on.
Ah-ma... I MISS U...
